Time quite fast today due to watching of videos in tudou. tian tang lai de hai zi~ i going watch finish le. chiong ar~ some parts make me cry. tears in my eyes. i just wonder how the last part will be. i may cry till using tissue papers. i feel that frens within me are getting further and further. am i really a person that people hate? i am so curious to know this ans. anyone can tell me. how come my frens are getting further and further? i know myself that wat i speak maybe hurtful. but whenever i wan to apologize is just rather too late or i dont meant to be forgiven. now, god is punishing me i guess. god making me left with nothing. even a shell for me to hide to cry also dun have. no one can understand how i feel. the god dun let me work, frens getting further from me, nagging from family daily. how am i going to live on with this 3 important things. i need frens, family and job. who can help me. i guess no one. i am always in a dark room alone. no one care about me. thats my retribution bah i guess. no family loves, no frens and no wealth. i just wonder how am i going live on. why must i have retribution? wat did i done? god can u pls tell me. i enough of going interviews le. is just wasting my money and time. i almost giving up. when den i can work? i really hate my family nagging at me. i am nothing in my family. i am useless, ugly, watever. i am willng to work and learn but no one bother to hire me. the pain of being reject really hurts. no one understand the pain i had. now frenships giving me problem again. why god taking my frens away from me. why????? i want to know the ans! i had enough of everything! i wan time to turn back. i wan replanish everything that i had done. i wan Ishi to be back. at least he can make me smile in my darkness room. i wan all my frens to be back to me. i wan to pass all my interviews. i wan my family to be proud of me. i wan to study higher nitec! can really all this be back? i guess i am just dreaming~ hais.
everything comes to an end at 11:48 pm.
I, PEARLYN. PROMISE TO LOVE CHARLIE AND ANGEL FOREVER.
Owner’s Profile
Name:Pearlyn
Job:The Bank of Tokyo-Mitsubishi Ltd(money transfer department)
Age:19
Birthday: 11 jan 1990
status:Single
Likes :My family,my lovely bro and sis,my friends.
Hates :betrayers,bastards,fuckers,bitches.
Respects:Ishi Lau Gek How
Email:Pearlyn_ho@hotmail.com
Owner’s dearest
Owner’s Taggy
Owner’s Wishlist
-meet him in my next life!
-private studying in business and financial/ banking
-private studying in tourism course as tour guide
-get in to perm staff at bank of tokyo! -slim down my fats!
-hope to be a bank teller -go Malaysia for shopping
-contact lens
-more boyfriend tee!
-more baggy pants/skinny jeans
-more necklaces -sandals/slipper/shoes
-holiday trip on the cruise
-More A CASH FOR AUDITION!
-go back to dance class in other studio!
-Guitar lesson -new handphone!
